RouletteWeekend

Hello Tuesday.

I was up way too early today. The full moon was shining through my bedroom window like a spotlight at 3:45 and once I noticed it, I noticed everything else that was going on in the bedroom. A dog scratching. A dog snoring. A cat walking on the bed. Will breathing heavy with his leg slung over me. And a weird pain in my abdomen that I’ve been ignoring for a month. So I went to the couch and laid down and what do you know? I fell right back to sleep under the weight of my anxiety blanket.

And then overslept.

I don’t even remember my 5 a.m. alarm going off. The kitchen light came on and woke me up. I’ve had a roommate for a little over a month now. We work together at the hotel and she was paying one of those weekly rent motels and just couldn’t get on her feet so I told her she could come stay with us. I knew it was risky because I don’t live well with others, but it has turned out to be pretty pleasant and she was able to find an affordable apartment that she gets to move into in two weeks. Maybe I’ve grown as a person and I’m not as picky with roommates as I used to be or maybe she’s just a good roomie. I don’t really know and I’ll likely not find out because I don’t know that I’ll have a roommate again. This was just kind of a one off situation.

Plus, I’m really trying to downsize my attachments. Although you probably wouldn’t be able to tell with the amount of animals I keep allowing in the house which includes a new dog we got a Christmas. But, our other dog needed a friend so I pretty much had to get him a playmate, right?

Anyway, today is promising to be another cold one here at the beach but the sun is supposed to be shining all day so that should help. I’ve double dosed myself on vitamin D supplements all winter and it seems to be helping with my Seasonal Depression. I’ve already started looking at the Baker Creek Heirloom Seeds catalog to see what I want to order this year. It’s an affliction that hits me every year. My good intentions of having a thriving garden cause me to overspend, over plant, and eventually stand in the yard disappointed as I watch things slowly die from neglect or my lack of knowledge. The only promising thing about my gardening woes is that each year I end up with a little more food than the year before. I think if I killed everything, maybe I’d give up, but that one pepper plant that gave us peppers until November has instilled a little spark of hope in me that turns into a roaring inferno with every click of the website. I already have stuff saved in my cart just waiting for me to purchase, but I’m going to be cautious in my clicking as I still have quite a few seeds from last year. And some may say it’s too early to be thinking about a garden, but I find thoughts of a garden are almost as exciting as the sun setting after 7 p.m. and since that isn’t happening yet, I’m just finding happiness wherever I can and this week, it’s been by looking at seeds.

Other than that, not much happening today besides work. If you’re reading this, I hope you have a good day. And remember, you can’t worry about what other people are doing or not doing, you can only worry about your own actions. So make today great and maybe I’ll catch you tomorrow.