I was talking to a friend the other day. I told her that I was craving a hot dog with slaw on it. She started telling me that my body (my liver specifically) was probably detoxing and releasing the toxins and emotions from the last time I did have a hot dog with slaw. That […]
I do my best self destruction in the winter. I try to keep myself occupied and happy-ish by any means necessary. I always fail because I usually turn to other people to entertain me and keep my mind off my inconceivable sadness. And every year I tell myself I’m not going to do it. I […]
I took a break from writing for about 2 months. No blogs. No books. No poetry. Nothing. I just went dark. I didn’t feel like I had anything positive to say and I didn’t want to junk up the world with negativity. And I didn’t pull my trusty laptop out today because of a resolution. […]
I’m taking a break from blogging. You are probably saying, “no shit, we can tell.” But I just wanted to tell you, the faithful readers, why. I have found myself in one of the darkest spaces I have ever been in. Not suicidal or anything like that, just always on the verge of tears and […]
Anxiety is like snowflakes. They say no two people have the same exact symptoms. “They” are probably right. Mine usually include a terrifying dread when I wake up every morning that I am going to get to work and I will have messed up something very important that can’t be un-messed up. And then I […]
I had to work late today. So, of course, when kiddo asked me to pick something up on the way home, I asked, “what.” His answer, “real food.” In Melspeak, “real food” means not snack food, not healthy food, not food that has to be cooked. Fast food. Nine times out of 10 chicken. He […]
My youngest kid turned 17 today. He’s one year away from “legally” becoming a man. And I’m one year away from not having to “parent” anymore. Today, I was in full parent mode. On his birthday, his English teacher decided to call me to tell me that my perfect child has been sleeping in his […]
