RouletteWeekend

Nothing exciting or amazing happened today, but then again, nothing exciting or amazing happened yesterday or the day before either, but one thing new did happen today. I managed to go the whole day without getting overwhelmed or really stressed out and I went the whole day without biting my co-worker’s head off. There is one particular person at work who has been taking the brunt of my frustrations and I feel bad about it because he is actually not usually the one who is frustrating me, but I love him the most and we have history, if that’s what you want to call it, so I guess I’m too comfortable in our situation. You know how you say stuff to family that you would never say to a stranger? I think that’s kind of where we fall and even though a lot of things happened today that were overwhelming and stressful, I managed to not let it grab a hold of me and shake the shit out of me like it has been lately. So I guess that means I’m leveling back out. I’m getting back to myself. Or maybe it means something else entirely. I just haven’t figured it out. I did get a cool new computer program at work yesterday that will make everyone’s life easier. I mean, it doesn’t make peanut butter and jelly sandwiches or anything, but it does auto schedule jobs and is ridiculously user friendly and super cool. I guess it doesn’t take much to make me happy…. or amuse me. Needless to say, I’m pretty content with my job at the moment and that’s kind of a big deal considering just last week I was wondering how long it would take and where I could find enough land to bury all the bodies. It’s funny how a couple deep breaths can save someone’s life and your own. I should get that written on a t-shirt or maybe on the butt of those super popular Walmart sweat pants. But I digress. My point is, I’m feeling more like myself. I’m feeling like I can get back to me. I’m not feeling as lost at the moment as I have. I’m starting to feel happy again. So I’m just going to sit back and enjoy the moment while hoping that it doesn’t pass too quickly.