I do my best self destruction in the winter. I try to keep myself occupied and happy-ish by any means necessary. I always fail because I usually turn to other people to entertain me and keep my mind off my inconceivable sadness. And every year I tell myself I’m not going to do it. I […]
I took a break from writing for about 2 months. No blogs. No books. No poetry. Nothing. I just went dark. I didn’t feel like I had anything positive to say and I didn’t want to junk up the world with negativity. And I didn’t pull my trusty laptop out today because of a resolution. […]
I decided not to dwell on my shortcomings on my 29th-ish birthday. Instead I decided not to dwell at all and just be. I worked all day. Boss man sent me a pizza for lunch, went to eat (and drink) with bestie and got to get a pig who I’ve named the Great Hambino because […]
Today turned out way better in reality than it started in my head. Anxiety is a cruel lover. I hate that I can come up with every single negative scenario that could possibly ever happen, all before breakfast. But all the problems were in my head. Bossman apologized for being not so nice on Saturday. […]
I’ve fallen into another psychological rut. I don’t want to go to work tomorrow. I don’t want to call in sick. I just want to not go. I had made up my mind to go in on Saturday and get ahead on a few things so I wouldn’t feel behind on Monday. But before I […]
So, I guess I should explain yesterday’s blog. I know I left it kind of open, but I was a little in shock after the whole “I love you” thing. So it went down like this… we were watching the Yankees game and it was the top of the 8th. The Yankees were up by […]
I was in my kitchen tonight washing dishes. On the top shelf of one of my cabinets, I have a plastic plate. It’s got three little compartments so your food doesn’t touch and it’s adorned with a little boy in a cowboy hat and his horse. I’ve had this plate since my daughter was born. […]
