I mentioned that I was going to be posting some guest blogs on here. I’m still working out the format and how to get enough to fill a slot every week. I was going to post this on Sunday, but I think for the next little bit, if she is up to it, I will be posting a guest blogger on Sundays, except for today. I’m trying to talk her into starting her own blog, but until that happens, she will be here. So without further ado…. I’d like to introduce Healing Hearts (HH) to you. Depression blogger. Survivor Blogger. Mom Blogger. Life Blogger.
To Start off….. A Poem……
Sometimes late at night
My eyes don’t want to close
My head feels jumbled with thoughts
I can’t get rid of all of these woes
Waking up is as close to torture as I can imagine
What if I wake up and something tragic happens
I want to be normal for all those around
But the thoughts in my brain can’t turn off the sound
I look at all the people with smiles on their face
Is it an act I often wonder but they all seem content no matter the place
Could I be the only one who feels
How could each and every happy feeling be so far gone
I would give up all my worldly goods
If I could wake up and feel those happy moods
The suffering is often too much to bare
How could a person with so much love in her life just not care
My friends are abundant and love me no matter what
Is what I have to offer enough when mostly I live my life like a robot
I am tired of only existing in a world that has so much to give
I want to not just exist but I want to fully live
I want to know my purpose and gift
There has to be something that can make my world shift
Medication after medication has made me so tired
Some make me numb and some make me wired
I want a life filled with unlimited joys
That is what I owe to my beautiful little boys
My spirit was damaged as a child experiencing fear, uncertainty, and loss of love
My brain was trying to develop but couldn’t rise above
This journey I am traveling is long and hard…..making me perpetually tired
I wish the person who did this had known he would destroy the way by brain is wired
I have so many beautiful and caring people that are my true friends
No matter how many phone calls I ignore or how distant I am , they never make me feel unloved or like I have to make amends
I didn’t wake up one day and choose to be this way
My circumstances in life led me astray
I am finally on my way to healing
I wouldn’t wish my worst enemy to suffer this feeling
Mental illness is real, painful, exhausting and so hard to cope with
Although most people fail to realize your brain is an organ and depression etc. is a myth
If you or someone you know is struggling and doesn’t know where to turn
There are tons of resources that can help you learn
The first step to getting better is admitting that something is wrong
Knowing you have to get help so you don’t suffer too long
Many people might say that you are weak because day to day life makes it hard to cope
But in reality you are stronger than those people because you are still here and even with all the pain and sadness you somehow manage to wake up and hold on for hope.
Don’t ever give up, you are not alone.
Have someone help you to find resources and pick up the phone.
You are worth it.
God made you beautiful.
Healing is possible.
Don’t give up, it takes time.