I keep breaking my own heart
every time I run my hand across
his chest and lay it on his heart
to see if it’s still beating.
I want him to look at me at 9am,
the same way he does at midnight through a shot glass
You keep breaking your own heart
every time you notice how
his fingernails show his true anxiety
but you memorize how his hand looks
holding on to yours for relief anyway
because you think you can help
She just keeps breaking her own heart
by holding onto a mirage hoping that
it actually appears
sending messages that get ignored
holding her breath for a reply
Because she doesn’t want to say goodbye
just yet
Say goodbye.
Stop breaking your own heart.
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