I spent the day today in Brad Bizjack’s Rewired Live event in St. Louis. It’s crazy how different mindset is in person versus reading or listening to a book or podcast. Live events are always more electric, this I know. This event, hit me in my soul today. I’m not typically an emotional person. I do most of my crying while cutting onions and my heart is rarely in it.
Today was a lot about taking your limiting beliefs and doing your best to throw them against the wall like fine china and smashing them to bits. I learned quite a bit in today’s session. I think the most important thing I learned, though, was everyone, no matter who or how successful still has moments of self-doubt and imposter syndrome. Nobody feels great about themselves all the time no matter what phase of life they are in. And for some reason, I found it comforting. Not that other people suffer, just that I am not alone in beating myself up for how far I haven’t come.
But also, on the flip side, I saw today how far I have actually come. Our last exercise was a very powerful envisioning exercise where we imagined what our eulogy might sound like and what our life might look like if we only had a week to live. While most people might panic at the idea of not having lived a full life, my experience was not that. Do I still have a whole lot of things I want to experience in life? I sure do. But if I died tomorrow and was still able to feel regret, would I? The answer is no.
Overall, I am really at peace with my life now. And I’ve made peace with the decisions I’ve made to remove toxicity from my life no matter how much I love a person. I know that I have always been kind and loving to people regardless of who they were or what their life was like. If I believed in heaven, I would definitely be confident I was getting in. If I believed in reincarnation, I would definitely think my next life would be an upgrade. If there was a highlight reel of all the wrongs I’ve done and all the things I’ve done right, the good would definitely outweigh the bad.
Have I made a difference in people’s lives? I think I have. Even if it was just to give a stranger a dollar or give a friend a place to lay their head or to listen to a stranger on a bus or hug someone who was crying. I do believe that the little daily actions that we keep to ourselves and don’t share with the world to prove we are good, are the ones that actually seal our fate on the karma board.
I felt complete at the end of our session today as far as my life is concerned.
Of course, like I said, I have a whole list of things I want to do before I die. And, of course, I don’t want to die until I’m so old my kids are wondering if maybe I’m going to outlive them, but if I found out today that I only had a week to live, I feel like I would get to spend it with the ones I loved and wouldn’t be rushing to the finish line trying to make amends with every person that I’ve wronged. And, it was a pretty good feeling.
They say you need to get into rooms with people who light you up. Today was one of those days. I was gifted this experience by a friend and I know that sometimes when you don’t have to pay for something, you don’t value it as much, but I gotta say, I’m savoring every moment of these two days, soaking in as much knowledge as I can, and I am planning on making some major changes in my life.
One of them is showing up today. Day 2 of blog consistency.
I hope you found a little magic in your day today. I’d love to hear about it if you did.
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