We’ve been living at the beach for 9ish months. And while I LOVE living here, I love being close to the water, I love going out on Fridays and walking on the marshwalk or by the ocean, but I don’t love the pay. I knew the cost of living would be higher here. I mean, we are at the beach. But for some reason, I naively thought that the pay would be proportionate. I was wrong.
I’ve looked at numerous jobs over the last couple of weeks trying to beat my current pay by more than $4 an hour and I have found nothing. I have a friend who works for a diagnostic company doing hearing and wellness tests around the country and we started talking about her job. She travels…. A LOT which means she’s not home very much, BUT she makes really good money. After talking to her for quite a while about it and talking to Will at length, I decided I was going to throw my hat in the ring. I had my first phone interview with a recruiter yesterday. I’m supposed to hear something back today or Monday about whether they have something in this state. But in talking with my friend, I told her that I would be willing to relocate and she relayed the message to her bosses.
I know that we just got here and I know that moving is kind of a big deal, but I also know that if you are feeling stuck, you can’t just sit in the same spot and wait for the quicksand to pull you under. It’s been this weird balance of nature vs anxiety here. When I’m at the water and looking out at the beach, I’m at peace. I’m happy. I’m hopeful. I’m joyous. When I think about my job and all the places that it lacks what I am looking for in a career I am paralyzed with dread and anxiety.
I’ve always wanted to travel. I’ve always wanted to see new sights and write about them. To me, it would be a stepping stone into my long time dream of being a travel writer. Writing has always been something I’ve done in my spare time for the most part and I think traveling for work would give me an extra opportunity to spread those wings.
So, I’m patiently waiting to hear back from the recruiter to see if there is a position available nearby. If not, I do know there is a position available on the other side of the country and if the circumstances are right, by this time next year, you may be seeing pictures of the Pacific Ocean instead of the Atlantic.
And I have to say, none of this would have been possible if I had not started out on the wellness journey I have been on for the last two years. It’s not the working out aspect of it, although, that has made me stronger. It’s the confidence aspect of it. Committing to moving my body every day and following through with what I told myself I was going to do has made me mentally fit. It has made me feel like I am worthy of doing great big scary things. It has made me feel like I am worthy of having the dream job. I already have the dream relationship, so why shouldn’t I be able to travel and get paid amazingly well and still do my coaching biz on the side and start writing? Why can’t I have it all? THAT is what taking care of myself has taught me. It’s taught me that I can do the hard things that I used to doubt and because I have proven to myself that I am capable of so much more than I was giving myself credit for, I also realize that I am an asset to any company that I choose to work for so why am I choosing to stay with a company who thinks I’m destined to sit at the front desk until the day I retire for mediocre pay?
I’m not.
So with that, I say, if you are stuck in the cycle of doubting yourself and thinking that you don’t deserve more, go ahead and start working on yourself, inside and out. Start walking daily. Start eating better. Start listening and reading personal development. Stop taking everyone’s bull and start living the life that YOU want to live, not the life that everyone else EXPECTS you to want to live and you will see a whole new world of possibilities open up. I’m excited to see what happens next.
Like Julia Cameron said, “leap, and the net will appear.”
Here’s to leaping into the unknown!
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