Body Shaming for Sex

If you’re on my Facebook page, then you probably already know the story of the guy who propositioned me for sex on Plenty of Fish and when I politely declined, he proceeded to tell me that he would have been doing me a favor by fucking me because he doesn’t usually have sex with “bigger women.” I then proceeded to be the bigger woman and block him from messaging me anymore after he continued to try to bully me into having sex with him still. I’m not sure if he thought that he was going to ruin my self-esteem by calling me fat and in one sentence have me thinking that I couldn’t do any better than him or maybe he was doing what so many men do and trying to play on my already firmly placed insecurities.

The joke was on him, however. I don’t have insecurities when it comes to my body. Do I love my body? Meh…not really. Do I hate it? Meh…not really. I’m pretty indifferent to it. I mean, it’s there, I have to live with it. Sometimes clothes look good on it. Sometimes they don’t. But I feel most comfortable when I’m naked so clearly, I can tolerate it. Plus, having sex with him would have been a personal favor from me. I’ve been in a room with me while having sex. That part of me is pretty darn confident. And like I mentioned on Facebook, his penis was way better looking than his face or his personality. Yes, I have a picture. Yes, it has been added to the collection.

Funny story though, I have been propositioned for so much sex this week and I’ve turned it all down. Not that it’s some big deal for me to say no to sex, but sometimes, I will do it just because I’m bored. But I think Alejandro ruined me. Not to be all sulky and shit, but a week ago, I was having my world rocked…physically and mentally. And I’m still salty and I don’t think anyone will compare. Especially nobody that I’ve talked to online. I guess I’m still licking my wounds.

It’s kind of like having the best pizza of your life out of town and when you get home, you’re so bummed that they don’t have that same exact pizza that you’d rather go without pizza. And that’s saying a lot because I love pizza.

So, thanks a lot, Alejandro.

Online dating has been a catch 22 for me. I hate it so much I want to delete my profile every 5 minutes. But I literally got 6 dick pics in less than two days so I’m thinking if I actually stay on there for a while I will get to my 365 dicks goal in no time. The only problem is that I have to talk to all of them or entertain them in some way. Although, I have found that as soon as they start talking sex if I send heart-shaped emoji eyes, they usually follow with a dick pic. Which has been fairly easy and predictable.

So I guess the online dating continues and I just need to keep my eye on the prize. IF dick pics are the prize. That’s to be determined.